Sunday, January 31, 2010

trying is not part of getting what you want

now there's an aching in my back,
a stubborn pain that says I lack,
the common sense and confidence,
to bring an end to promises,
that I make in times of desperate conversation.
hoping my night could be better than this in the end

...

I never told a lie,and that makes me a liar,
i never made a bet,but we gamble in desire,
Ive never lit a match,with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames are getting out of control

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Sunday, January 24, 2010

If I play my cards right.where would I really end up?

sometimes in life you just have to take a risk

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

hmmm

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

dr jekyll n mr hyde

hi there.its 6.30 or ++ in the morning and im up for a jog but it looks like its going to rain .while im sitting here with the lamps still switched off.Im wonder.why some people can be two faced?or love to talk behind our back.yeah we're all human I supposed that I did that too,but occasionally when someone starts first,or whenever things get worst.but my point is.some people can be so mean and talk shit but when they're around you they act like they never done it and act all cool .well im not buying it.I just can tell.so lately im in this stupid situation again.i just hate it.if u can talk behind my back why cant u say it to my face.is it so hard?i always do that if im not satisfied.how bout others?are you too afraid to talk to me?physically 'whoever u might' be has ego which they think they can be bruce lee's rip off.but truthfully you're an ass.weaker than everyone.I believe a healthy body leads a strong mind.don't go act jackie chan when you never touch a person or even hitting the gym.im not trying to say im strong but its just the way it is.ok that is the first example of an ass.one more which somehow leads to skinny people or you can just say feminine guys/gays/transsexual and etc etc.u guys are seriously messed up.wasting your time infront of the mirror.buying topman clothes wont make u cool if youre an ass just like everyone else.talk shits behind people's back and act there's nothing wrong.and eventhough you hate that person you'll still hang and I just cant understand why.are you desperate for attention?are you retard? your parents must be so proud with your attitude i must say.oh well i gotta go .thats all for now

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

the future can wait

hey yaw. I woke up early today.been thinking about college again and future.it bothers me the whole night ,maybe I just think of it too much .maybe ?maybe not. somehow I still feel like sweet sixteen.

I plan on living forever. So far, so good.

whats happening?

OK so lately.I've been busy.very busy with friends, life and college.I still have doubts on continuing this college,because lately we've been having holidays for the couple of weeks since there's no lecturer is teaching us.dad told me to have a look on other colleges since he thought it is safe that I start looking one now for back up before anything happen.what do you think?other than that life's been great.been away from all those bullshit ,high school shit,and all those drama2 .for now lets just say.I have good friends , and everyone I know is feeling good too,and my family as well not to be forgotten!ahhh good times .I love it.well i think I'm gonna stop here for now.there's tones of work still left for my college and I haven't started a shit yet.toodles!